NUMB

NUMB.

I live in this new world where I know someone dying almost everyday. I live in a world where my own mortality is thrown in my face.
Why her and not me? Tears don't come.

Shock.
Sadness.

My stomach is in knots.....Will I be next?
Why God???

LEGACY. What is her legacy? What is my legacy?
Life is too short.
To live life in the moment is pressing into my soul.

I also want to retreat. No more sadness.
NUMB. Distract. Ignore. Don't go there.